Here

I wanted to be here, this is where they told me to be.

They said I would do well here.

They told me this was where I was meant to be.

I waited and tried.

Gave it my all, even when I felt like each time was my last, again I tried.

I listened and followed, then I realized…

I cannot follow.

I must learn for myslef.

I must find a new place.

That was a big truth to swallow.

To be here, to understand…

To feel free, to be able to independently stand…

I finally get it.

I finally understand.

I am always exactly where I need to be.

Yes, here, but also, not where they told me I should be.

Here is within me.

Here is wherever I am, wherever I need to be.

-M.