Did you know that I was watching?
I was watching you as you drifted away.
You got on that boat and just like that you were gone, oh how I wish you could have stayed.
I couldn’t sit at home, as your side of the bed felt like the morning chill.
Your warmth had left with you.
All I could hear was the silence of the unmoving air.
Though, I could smell you, it was like you were still here.
Your aftershave stuck around, the scent seemed to be dancing in the air.
It was taunting me, my eyes wanted to fill up with tears.
As your scent was lingering, my body was trembling, holding back so many fears.
You left a sweater, so I put it on, hoping it would help me feel some comfort with you being gone.
I decided to follow your missing shadows, they had followed you when you left, in the early morning hours.
I wandered down to the docks, hoping to catch one last glimpse.
The sun was beginning to rise, it glowed a bright orange, with a background of a cobalt blue sky, a blue that reminded me of your deep wise eyes.
There was no telling which of those moving shadows was yours, I was longing to see into the depths of those deep blue eyes once more.
I felt the tears begin to well up, as I began to realize, there was probably not going to be another chance to say goodbye.
I will wait for you, my dear.
I will wait for you, right here.
Please stay safe, and when you’re done, please come home to me, please return to me from that wide open sea.
Until then, I will be waiting, wearing your sweater and hoping to, once again, feel the warmth of you.
I will wait for you.
-M.
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