Love Songs

Love can be whatever you want it to be.

It can be a mystery, or a sweet storybook fantasy.

Love is said to be patient and kind, but it can also feel sticky and bitter at times.

We want so badly to be in love, yet sometimes that is not as a simple as the words above.

Love can be whatever you want it to be.

Do you want it to be like a sweet lullaby?

It really is such a mystery.

Love is challenging, love is deep.

Love can be whatever you want it to be.

We always hope it will be easy.

You trust and give and lose so much sleep,

Yet, so easily, it can be lost like a ship at sea.

Though, it is okay, for there will always will be more love songs to play,

And once again, you can fall asleep while counting all of those fence jumping sheep, just hoping, one day, you can find your love again.

Love can be whatever you want it be…

So, what will it be?

-M.

Waiting for You

I waited for you, then I decided to search for you.

For years I looked.

For years I tried.

I finally found you, but it wasn’t the right time.

You wanted to come to me, but you just weren’t quite ready.

Its okay.

I will wait for you.

I can keep waiting, until the time is right, until you are ready.

Until then, I will be watching the sunrise and set, walking along the beaches, feeling the breeze, wishing you were here with me.

Until we meet again, I will hold you dearly, in my memory.

-M.

Beauty of the Light

Can we just pretend like darkness doesn’t exist?

That only light and beauty are what we are encompassed with?

Darkness seems to take over so much of the light.

When darkness comes, sometimes its hard to remember the light.

The beauty of the light is so immensely overwhelming.

The beauty of the light can sometimes be hypnotizing.

Surely we could not exist without the balance of the darkness and the light, but when we see the glow of that beautiful light, it really can make one wonder, what it would be like, a world full of light.

-M.

Fairy Guides

Let me take you on a trail,

I will take you to meet your Fairy Guides.

Bring your chocolate and your sweets,

Bring some shiny and sparkly things.

They love their ale, but leave that home for now, lets just ease into this first time meeting.

We will sing songs and speak in poem.

Remember to thank them while giving them their treats.

Don’t ask them for any favors, just yet,

It is a delicate thing, to meet your Fairy Guides, you can’t give them all the things and then get right to your first request.

First you must win their favor.

Show them love, and gratitude.

Let them know you think they are clever.

Trust me, you’ll want to do this if you want to win them over.

The Fae are a special type of being.

They will create a mess if you don’t have good intentions.

Chocolates, honey, sweet and shiny things, that is the way to these magical beings.

Gratitude, songs, love and patience,

These are the ways to the hearts of your Fairy Guides.

Leave the treats at the base of a tree.

Then bring more the next day, trusting that they will see.

A little bit of kindness and a whole lot of love,

That is the way to your fairy guides.

Once your in, keep them happy and safe, by being kind to all the living things.

Fairies know, they see and hear, all of who you are and what you do.

Keep them happy and they will bring you all the love and good fortune of your hearts deepest desires.

-M.

The Bridge of Wonder

This bridge, it is a magic bridge, it will lead you to places you’ve never been to before.

It will take you to a world full of wonder, with so many new places to explore.

You will see magic like you thought was only in fairy tales.

Your wildest dreams will come to life and take you away, like nothing you’ve ever imagined could be true.

Walk over this bridge and don’t look back.

One step forward and no steps back.

Count to three and close your eyes.

Here we go, tell all your fears goodbye.

One step, two steps, here we go, no looking back, onward we go.

-M.

Lets Fly Away

Fly away with me.

We can see new sights.

Hear new sounds.

There will be new adventures to be had.

On our way we will soar over the sea.

The waves will rumble below our wings, but we will keep flying, safely above the sea.

We will fly through the clouds, feeling their softness as we glide through.

Planes will pass us by, they will be loud, but it will be okay.

The passengers will wave to us, saying, “Hi”, as we fly by their windows.

Fly away with me.

We will see new lands.

We will experience new things.

There is so much more to beyond the open sea.

Come fly away with me, it will be an adventure, just follow me, you’ll see.

Lets fly away.

-M.

Lost Love on the Beach

I went to find you, but you had already gone…

The waves tried to show me which way, but I got lost trying to find your footprints in the sand.

Darkness was coming, so I needed to hurry.

There was so much left to tell you…

So much left to show you…

Maybe one day, another life, another time…

Maybe one day, another chance, another meeting…

Until then, may the waves remember our laughs.

May the winds remember ours scents.

May the sands continue to hold the footprints of when we danced and sat, watching the waves and feeling the love of the sea, together.

– Your Love

M.

The Seagulls

She’s back again, and she has the audacity to take more pictures. I’m going to pounce on her.

We are birds, not cats we don’t pounce. Seagulls are known to be thoughtless flying rats, in this area. Leave the human alone.

So what, I’m going to do it. My wings are spread and ready to go.

I’m going to stare her down. She may already be intimidated by me since I’m looking stout and dark with my intense stare down already in action.

Just ignore her, she will go away. Any sudden movements will create more interest and she will continue to interrupt our rooftop banter.

You are weak. You want me to just ignore her? How could we do that? We must attack. Surely you can learn to pounce, as we are also surrounded by feral cats that people leave in our care. They pounce all day. Maybe I can get them to join in on the attack.

Do NOT engage with those furry animals! I must interrupt this thoughtless attempt of causing any sort of engagement with our sworn enemies, as well as your attempts to pounce on this person. The humans must not become aware of our consciousness of them. Leave her be and walk the roof and act aloof, as the rest of us are doing.

But I just want to get my pounce on and land on her head. I’m sure I could really giver her a scare, if I landed on her head and messed up all that wild hair of hers.

This is getting out of hand. You must leave the roof if you don’t stop this nonsense. If you attempt to attack the human, we will swarm around you before you reach her. No sense in that happening. Catch my drift?

Okay, I get it, wings down…

I’m going to keep staring her down.. can’t stop me.

As long as that is all you do, that is fine.

And the human lived to see another day… all hairs intact.

-M.

Thoughts and Thinking

It is 2021 and we are constantly bogged down by newsfeeds, work, bills, all of life’s many distractions, plus so many other things. Our brains are overstimulated and misdirected, all day long. How do you know how to choose what to focus on when it feels like a waterfall of information is coming at you, in a steady, heavy pace? Niagara falls stops for no-one, nor do our thoughts. It is a continuous movement of energy that we don’t know what to do with. So we feed into it. We allow the thoughts to control us.

Thoughts controlling a strong human being? That doesn’t seem right, does it?

Adjustments need to be made. thought patterns need to change. This Niagara falls will stop and change direction for anyone who sees their ability to change this unnecessary habit, or it will take them under and drown them, over and over again. Yes, thought patterns are a habit. Thinking in a certain way is a learned habit. Overtime, we fall into cycles. Our brain catches on and replays it like a broken record. Habits are how our brain takes stress away, by creating an easy autopilot for us. Yet, not all of these habits are good for us. They can be damaging for us and mess with how we need to be able to grow and change.

Take, for example, anxiety; fearing what is not here yet, or may never be. This could be good for some things. It is great to try to be prepared for some things, like saving money for upcoming bills. It was also good for when we used to live in the wild. Though, if we continue to get stuck in its undercurrents, we can be stuck, in that mental fetal position (our mind’s prison) all day, everyday, for the rest of our lives, unless we make a change in the patterns of thoughts we allow ourselves to continuously focus on.

Force the change. You can do it!

If you want some help with this, there are many ways to get out of your bad habit thought patterns. This is where meditation, exercise, creating art, and critical thinking all come into play.

Meditation helps you focus on seeing your thoughts pass by without giving too much attention to them. You just acknowledge them and let them go. Or you can focus on your breath, an object, a sound, or listen to a guided meditation that is directing your focus away from your thoughts (for the most part). This creates a more peaceful mind. An easier mental flow and it even reduces stress and pressure off of your heart. I’d say that’s a pretty good reason to give it a try.

Meditation thinking example: “I hear water flowing, oh wait, I need to go to the grocery store, oh wait, I am meditating… This water flowing music is really nice… shoot, I’m not supposed to be thinking about anything. Okay, starting now… Hmm, I wonder if I could get away with buying some cookies, oh shoot, just listen to the water… okay… ohhh, so peaceful…” Thoughts come and go, but you just redirect your focus to whatever meditation you are doing. It is normal and natural to do this. Even after years of meditation, I still do this, getting distracted by thoughts. We just, eventually, learn to let go and go with the flow.

We are not supposed to be perfect. Practice and being easy on yourself is how you become better at many things, meditation included.

Exercise gets your body moving, sends brain waves to better places, helps you work through thoughts and process new ones (and old ones), while giving you a happy boost. We are supposed to be moving all day. So when we don’t move enough, we automatically fall into dark thinking territories, more easily. This is how depression really plants itself into us and tries to bring us down from a better, more emotionally stable place of thinking and feeling. If you practice finding ways to move more will help you change your thought patterns, too.

When sitting, you can move your upper body, doing twists. If at a standing desk (I just turned my desk into a standing desk, so much better!), or cooking, move your legs, march in place, do squats. Get creative with it. Try going outside and walking, as often as your schedule allows. Run, lift weights, do things to help yourself become physically stronger, so you can also become more mentally stronger.

Creating art is a wonderful way to create better thought patterns. There is even something called art therapy, which is a helpful way to bring new direction to your thoughts, and gives you a self-confidence boost. Then you can see that you are capable of more than you knew.

Not everyone is artistic, but even writing is a form of art. Write down your thoughts, your day, plans, dreams… Write a gratitude list. Doodling, painting, building something, there are so many forms of creating art. Way back when… before there were machines, we made everything that we needed or wanted. Taking ourselves away from this creates a feeling of uselessness and a lack of using our creative minds. We are smart, ingenuitive, resourceful and we can change our thought patterns when we allow ourselves to see how smart and creative we are! “Oh yes, this rock can be useful for so many things; a hammer, an herb grinder, a wrist rest for my hand while I use my computer mouse.” True story, I have a heart shaped rock that I use as a wrist rest, if I need it. Though, I have not tried to use it for those other two options, but now I know I can!

Don’t be shy, get creative!

Critical thinking is when you take a step back and look at what is going on, with a different mindset. You aren’t judging, you are researching, you are figuring out what, why, how and if it is necessary or important. Are these thoughts useful? Where are they directing you? Are they leading you to danger or are they guiding you to peace and good things. ” I am preparing for the end of the world, so I am going to buy a whole bunch of canned foods, beans and rice, so I can hide away in my dungeon and eat said food, while their is a plethora of available recourses outside, if the world does come to an end. Well, actually, maybe I don’t need canned food. maybe I should use my time on earth to live and experience the present moment. If the world ends, then how could I even eat all of the beans, rice, and canned foods? We would all be gone. Okay, I will put the Chef Boyardee down and walk over towards the produce. My fears will no longer control me, at least not right now.”

By the way, living foods are also very helpful for your brain as well as your mental and emotional health. These bodies are of nature and need nature to thrive. Try eating more whole foods and see how much it changes you, for the better.

You only have one mind. You only have this one life (unless you’re awake and know that you are a soul who is here to learn and grow and experience this and many lives, but we are really just focusing on this one life, at the present moment). You have the potential to make it better, if you allow yourself to find the ways out of your own, self-created, lions dungeon.

Although, sometimes the thoughts aren’t just about danger or fear. They can be self-defeating. We an be extremely hard on ourselves and put ourselves down for no reason. Why? Because we live in 2021.

We think we need to be constantly happy.

We are shown that we need to be perfect.

We believe we need to be comfortable all day and all night. Why be uncomfortable when we have heaters and air conditioning, soft beds, comfort foods, many layers of clothes to protect us from the elements. We weren’t made for comfort. We were made for survival, adaption and growth. We evolve, yet we have evolved into soft, squishy comfortable robots that are controlled by our minds which like to lie to us. Where is this leading us? “Please no,. I don’t want to be a soft, squishy robot anymore!”

Your thoughts guide you, though, you can guide them first. You are a strong human being with a very capable and strong mind. Letting your thoughts lead you and direct you is dangerous territory, unless you are in charge of their focus. Change that Niagara falls flow into something that forces you to wonderous places, not to your drowning death, in a mess of fear, dislike and far away from all of your dreams and aspirations.

Connect to your higher self. Find your smart mind. Learn how to choose your thoughts. This will greatly affect how you live your life and how you view and approach the current world that we live in.

Have a great day and choose your thoughts wisely. – M.















Choices

Each day we make choices. When we wake up, do we hit snooze? What do we eat for breakfast? There are so many things to think about and decide on throughout each and every day, let alone throughout our entire lifetime. How do you make decisions? Nobody really teaches us that. How do you know what you really want?

Lately, I have been really noticing how hard it is for me to make choices, for myself. I want to make other people happy. Though, how does that help my life?

When I say “yes” to something that isn’t right for me, I notice a change in how my body feels. Sometimes my mood switches and I feel a bit irritable and uncomfortable, or just not as calm as I had just before the exchange of words.

Words are more than letters on a screen, though. Words are promises. Words are commitments. Unless you don’t value others, or how you are viewed, then you can say whatever you want and never mean any of it. Which will also make you hard to trust. If you are that type of person, you may not care, a single bit, about if anyone trusts you. I am currently working on building trust, in myself, and in others, This means my words are important to me. My choices and my actions are, as well.

Choices come in many forms. I choose to sit here in this chair, while I feel my back and hips becoming more and more unhappy, with each second I don’t get up and stretch. Though, I have things to say and want to share. I choose to type, while deleting and going back, as my long nails get all the extra keys on my keyboard, because I choose to keep my nails long, since they help my jewelry making, they are pretty useful for getting splinters out after my barefoot walks, plus I love a good scalp scratch. I weigh out the pros and cons, without too much thought, when I make choices. Though, that is not always the case.

When I was freshly 19, I got married. We wrote letters, after meeting, for around 8 months. That is how we dated. He went off to boot camp a few days after we met. Since writing letters isn’t exactly the best way to get to know someone, and I had so much more to learn about myself (and life), it didn’t last long. Although, it showed me how driven I am to do what I want and to make my own choices, to learn to live with the consequences. I see now, how I have learned to be more careful, though still have dated more than I wish to expand on, on here. Now, almost 37 and have not gone down the aisle again, I am making sure the next one, (if there will be one) is the right one.

Life brings many hills, some small, some mountainous. One of my biggest challenges has been learning to trust myself and what I am passionate about. School has seemed like my golden ticket to success, yet, I have gone to many, many, (okay…) many schools, and have not completed any programs or degrees. Oh, a caregiving class. Second attempt. Caregiving was great, for a time. Then I realized I have passions that I am not perusing, that won’t break my back. So back to school, to avoid them some more. Now, here I am, just fresh out of two colleges this year, neither one worked out and I am realizing more about how important choices are.

We feel things. We desire things. We dream about a life that we hope to, one day, have. Yet, we fall into cycles, patterns, black hole-like mindsets that we don’t understand we are in. Trauma gets us. Anxiety grabs us. Fear locks in and we are down for the count. We think we know what we need to do to have a good life, but do we really? Do we really get it? Do we really know ourselves?

For years, I thought that if I found Mr. Right and had a degree that would be it. What about everything else? I have always dreamed of being a writer and a photographer, for a living. If you know me, and know my life history, you know that I have a tendency to start and stop things, and have been in my own cycle of not trusting myself to succeed without crutches. My kids have been my focal point. Now that they are both in high school, I feel the drive, stronger than ever, to find myself so I will be in a good place when they leave me to my empty nest. To me, that means choosing to follow my dreams and move forward with my passions. I want to show them that hard work and dedication can get you to where you want to be.

When I wake up, I am grateful for the day. Before bed, I look forward to the next day. We can choose to see things differently than we have, for most of our lives. We can choose what we do, how we do it and so much more. What I hope you get from reading all of this is that you are in charge of your life. Find a way to look at your life and what you would like to change, if you aren’t happy with the choices you have made, up to this point. There is no better time than now, to start enjoying your life more. I hope you find some beauty in each day. There is always something to be grateful for, when you make the choice to see it. – M.