Cold
Shaking
Never knew fear could be felt so hard
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Terror
Trauma
Death feels like it is trying to take me away
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Visions
Dreams
Hoping all of this is not for no reason
⁃ M.
Stress and Struggle
Stress and Struggle
Combining words, due to stress.
Really no one left to impress.
Hoping for one more chance.
Nine lives, like a cat, could be.
Maybe one day I will learn to dance with the shadows of my past.
Maybe one day I will learn to appreciate these current struggles.
For now I will be here, laying in sorrow, learning to forgive myself,
Learning to trust myself,
Trying to believe that it will all be okay.
⁃ M.
I Choose Me
I’ve loved so many
But I didn’t love me
Neither did they,
Though they did say,
They didn’t show me,
So they drifted away.
I choose me,
For so long I have chosen everyone else.
So many men,
Even a women,
Just so many,
I’d rather not say.
It’s time to be here for me.
It’s time to focus on loving me.
I choose me and that’s okay.
You may see me and want to change me,
But I am fully taken,
I am taken by me.
⁃ M.
Time Away
Let it Flow
My Teachers – My Children
Mother’s Day
Process of Healing
Alone
I want to be alone.
I want to fall and pick myself back up.
I want to learn to dance with my shadow.
I want to know how strong I am.
I want to make it on my own.
I want to feel safe, alone.
⁃ M.
Survival
I can’t stand to look at some things.
Can’t handle the memories.
Can’t stand the feelings they bring.
Let it go.
Toss it.
Give it away.
Sell it.
Do whatever it takes.
Maybe even just keep it around to help the healing process.
Don’t be weak.
Don’t hide away.
Pain hurts.
Memories hurt.
Remembering is scary.
Life is so fragile.
I am strong.
Memories bring back the fears.
Makes me feel weak.
Shaking begins.
Feels like death is near.
Pain is healing.
But it’s not always necessary.
Find peace.
Trust the process.
Explore the pain.
Let it go.
Let it be.
You are safe.
It’s been so long now.
More time will pass.
More pain will fade.
Be here, now.
I am okay.
⁃ M.
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