Falling Apart

Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

Learning About Self-Value

Those who truly value you won’t diminish your energy.

They won’t take from you without giving back.

They won’t argue with you when you set your prices for things you are selling, or art you are working on building a business around.

They won’t try to give you less than what you say you are setting as your worth.

Those who are truly here to support you and want to see you succeed will meet you where you are at, while helping you step up to your next level.

They will do this by helping you see how worthy you are of the successes you desire.

They will want to help you achieve your goals.

Even if that means by stepping away from you when they know your time together is no longer aligned.

Those who are here for your highest good will never put you down.

They will never make you question whether or not they are truly good people for your life.

So often we can be in situations where we find ourselves overwhelmed by frustration, because we have surrounded ourselves with a few people who we constantly question, “Are they really a good friend? Would a good friend make me that uncomfortable? If they are my friend, why do I feel so uneasy around them and why do they make me feel unsafe?”

Life is constantly showing us so much about who we are and putting us in situations of questioning ourselves and those around us.

This all for our personal growth.

Learn what you see to be valuable to you, around your peace.

Who is truly your friend?

Who is wearing a mask?

Who is only next to you because they enjoy what they gain from being in your energy field?

You can hold space for your own happiness and feelings of peace.

You don’t need to be around those who put you down or take from you without giving back.

You are deserving of peace.

Remember that you are loved.

You are important.

-M.

Progress

Taunting Waters

You challenged me with your mist.

Along your path, you hissed.

A roar, a flow, a gravitating blow, there was no release to your taunting.

Right by you, I walked.

I could smell you, without an effort or a thought.

As you reached my toes, you bellowed out more of your rough talk.

The thought of following you out, amongst your depths, is still a thought, a very daunting thought that is quite haunting.

-M.

Promises to Myself

I promise to always be my best friend, for too long I have been my worst enemy.

I promise to stop thinking of myself as not enough, or too much, I am enough.

I promise to always allow laughter and joy, for a life lived too seriously is not an enjoyable life.

From now until my last breath, I promise to always share kindness instead of gossip.

If I ever forget any of these, may I quickly remember them, because without these promises, life just isn’t quite as good.

-M.