Falling Apart

Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

Learning About Self-Value

Those who truly value you won’t diminish your energy.

They won’t take from you without giving back.

They won’t argue with you when you set your prices for things you are selling, or art you are working on building a business around.

They won’t try to give you less than what you say you are setting as your worth.

Those who are truly here to support you and want to see you succeed will meet you where you are at, while helping you step up to your next level.

They will do this by helping you see how worthy you are of the successes you desire.

They will want to help you achieve your goals.

Even if that means by stepping away from you when they know your time together is no longer aligned.

Those who are here for your highest good will never put you down.

They will never make you question whether or not they are truly good people for your life.

So often we can be in situations where we find ourselves overwhelmed by frustration, because we have surrounded ourselves with a few people who we constantly question, “Are they really a good friend? Would a good friend make me that uncomfortable? If they are my friend, why do I feel so uneasy around them and why do they make me feel unsafe?”

Life is constantly showing us so much about who we are and putting us in situations of questioning ourselves and those around us.

This all for our personal growth.

Learn what you see to be valuable to you, around your peace.

Who is truly your friend?

Who is wearing a mask?

Who is only next to you because they enjoy what they gain from being in your energy field?

You can hold space for your own happiness and feelings of peace.

You don’t need to be around those who put you down or take from you without giving back.

You are deserving of peace.

Remember that you are loved.

You are important.

-M.

Sit with Yourself

Sit with yourself.

Let the fears and worries swim around you. 

Then let the universe show you that there is nothing to worry about. 

There is nothing to fear. 

Sit with yourself. 

Remember who you are. 

Remember why you are here 

Sit with yourself.

Relish in the silence. 

Appreciate the nature that surrounds you. 

Sit with yourself. 

Lean in. 

Listen to the whispers of your heart. 

What are they saying…

Sit with yourself. 

Be alone. 

Walk quietly.

Let the thoughts trickle away. 

Be still. 

Be silent. 

Breathe. 

You are safe. 

Love yourself. 

You are enough 

– M. 

Nature Heals Us

Let Go of the Past

Trust

We are One

Life’s Beauties

Future Self, What Can I Expect?

Sometimes I think I should find a way to talk to my future self. It’s too bad time travel doesn’t really exist. I would have trouble staying in the present time. It is just so much more exciting to think and dream about the future. What is the hear and now, aside from pain and challenges?

Is it hard for you to get out of bed? As I get older, I find it to be more of a struggle. My body hurts, in all the “getting old” body places. Early signs of arthritis are keeping me aware of most of my joints. You know how they say that you, at some point, just age overnight?” I think that happens in your mid-thirties, with intensity. Gravity also just shows up. Followed by many groupings of grey hairs and some skin creases. It seems like everything cracks and aches. They should probable allow retirement to be lowered to the age of 40. Though, with all of that, life is still beautiful. It is worth getting out of bed each morning, to discover new things to appreciate about this life.

Life is not something to complain about. We grow so much, throughout our life. We get to have many life experiences that are very beautiful. Sometimes we get a chance to have some really amazing experiences, that leave us feeling the happiness days later, or when we think back to that day or moment. We can have a day full of so much good, then we can have days filled with one headache after another.

What would it look like if we only had good days? Is that really something to wish for? I have learned that we need the tough days. Those challenges keep us growing. Sometimes they really help us learn what we need to work on inside of ourselves.

If I were to talk to my future self, maybe I might not want to know what I have to look forward to. Maybe I would want to stay in the dark about challenges and roadblocks. If we know what’s coming then we can’t practice going with the flow. We can’t experience the blood rushing panic or the elated joyfulness, quite as much. The blood rushing panic may sound unsatisfactory, but it is part of life. Being elated and joyful are just as important to experience.

The knowing can be great, but the unknowing can be greater. Just as we are in this age of needing to be constantly busy, we should also remember to appreciate the present moment, without needing to be distracted. When you are constantly distracted, you forget the your current self needs to be acknowledged more. Find your breath and follow it. The flow comes much easier when you can be in the present. You future self would tell you the same thing. Be here, and know that tomorrow will bring no more than you are capable of handling. Tomorrow will bring something else, that today cannot. Today will always be the best place to be, no matter where you are. Practice letting go of fear or expectations of tomorrow. Today and tomorrow will have plenty enough to fill up your time.

Be here. Be grateful. Or be ungrateful. Just be you, in the present moment.

-M.