Falling Apart

Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

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You Matter

Learning to Let Go

We have come to a place of understanding that who we are and where we are matters. Although, sometimes we can think that what we have and who we have around us is necessary to hold onto.

We hold onto expectations for ourselves.

We hold onto expectations for others.

We hold onto hopes that we have for ourselves, and we tend expect that these things are going to make us feel better.

This is not the case. How we feel inside is what matters. Letting go of what is on the outside and letting go of attachments to all of these THINGS is what he’s going to bring us peace.

How often have you felt as though moving, having more money, having a relationship or physical things will make you feel better?

Your relationship with yourself, your love for yourself, your acceptance of yourself, your perception of yourself, and your ability to care for yourself and your inner world is more important than anything else.

When we learn to let go of what we think that we need and what we think will bring us happiness, we can allow what is really right for us to be known.

Let go of your attachments to people.

Let go of your attachments to physical things.

Let go of your need to be numb.

Let go of your need to look a certain way.

The only thing that will bring you true peace is to learn to love and accept yourself.

You matter.

Your need to constantly be distracted will bring you more and more dissatisfaction.

You are capable of doing so much more than you know.

You are capable of being at peace with less.

You are capable of feeling at peace on your own.

Let go.

Be free.

You are safe.

You are loved.

Allow it.

Accept it.

Feel it.

You are free.

Let it be.

– M.

The Guided Life

We are never really certain where we are supposed to guide our feet. So many pulls, in so many directions, usually has us falling this way and that. Yet, once we can really look at our feet and the path we are on, we can decide which terrain will be best.

Nobody can walk our path, but us. Where we go is up to us. We can take advice. We can accept direction and guidance. In the end, it is all up to us.

Have you ever seen a squirrel stopped, confused with which way to turn? Not a typical site. How many times have you felt that way, though? At a crossroads. At a bridge. In the middle of a great divide. How do you choose?

We can find our way, just like nature guides the seasons and guides the animals. We are also guided. We are guided by our thoughts. Our body guides us with how it feels in certain situations. We have intuition. In order to allow it to guide us, we must learn to trust.

Trust yourself. You will always know what is best for you.

– M.