Falling Apart

Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

Waiting for Forever to Come

Freedom

Why is freedom so hard to imagine?

We want to be free to think and to live the way we want, yet there is one thing after another that locks us into submission to continue to think and live within boundaries of fear and self-criticism.

Being human is limiting, but we are more than that.

Having a mind and a consciousness creates a messy situation, as we constantly search for something or someone to believe in.

Why not look to ourselves and see our endless potential?

Why, instead are we seeking outward support or guidance which ends up limiting us to their opinions or limited beliefs?

We are not these bodies.

We are not these minds.

We are spirit.

We are energy.

We are endless and are capable of more than we allow ourselves to believe.

Government, church, religion, so much has corrupted us…

So much has brain-washed us into believing that we are limited.

Look to the birds, when you feel stuck.

Look to the birds when you feel less than capable.

Look to nature when you feel trapped.

Look to nature when you feel disconnected from yourself.

You are free.

You are all that you want and all that you hope to be.

It is all within you.

-M.

Self-Talk

You are doing good.

You are pushing hard.

You are taking time to rest.

Your dreams are worth living.

-M.

Peace

Breathe in peace.

Breathe out fear.

Breathe in healing.

Breathe out fear.

Breathe in trust.

Breathe out….

-M.

Majestic Mountains

Mountains, how do you stand so tall?


I have tried so hard to stretch my neck and straighten my back, yet still, I cannot stand as tall.


You get the first dusting of snow.


The clouds hover around your peaks and dance among your valley’s, which always seem to drop so low.


The wondrous heights that one must climb to get to the tops of your highest peaks, takes such great efforts for even the strongest ones around.


You have yet to show weakness, which is something I also am trying to learn.


How do you just sit there all day and all night?


You must get a bit tired of not moving.


Oh mountains, you bring so many hills and valleys.


Each spring you bring us water, as the snow melts and flows down your strong mountain sides.


Thank you for your strength and determination to stand strong and tall all day, through the many years of your life.

How do I show you gratitude for I am so, very grateful to you, even just for your incredible beauty and each rise and fall of your peaks and valleys.


You truly are majestic, each beautiful part that makes you, you.

-M.