The Sound of the Storm

Posted on January 28, 2025January 28, 2025 by Healing Creations PNW

The Sound of The Storm

On the harder days, I remember this day.

It reminds me of what I have gotten through.

Feeling the storms of my emotions, while getting my picture taken, not knowing what would come after.

Already working on dealing with so much trauma, and trying to survive, trying to keep my kids safe, though, it felt like there was danger coming.

Feelings erupting inside of me.

Feeling in a place of uncertainty, just as we tend to be, when in the middle of a storm.

After this shoot, I went for my daily walk and found my daughter was missing.

She was not where she was supposed to be, and when she knew I knew, she made it so I couldn’t call or text her.

It was a long weekend, trying to find her and get her home.

These are not stories I typically share on here, due to not wanting to over share, but sometimes I just need to release, for the healing, and to maybe help someone else.

Twenty six hours of not knowing where my daughter was, or if she would come home.

Twenty six hours of being in panic for her life and her wellbeing.

She finally returned home, and she was safe.

One more scar on my heart.

One more memory to remember how much I love her.

One more reason to show her more sensitivity and compassion.

This shoot really ended up representing more than Marina Shipova or I could have even imagined.

Life is always full of uncertainty.

We just have to muster the courage to keep going.

One step at a time.

One day at a time.

One moment at a time.

Find your peace.

Find your balance.

Find your strength.

You are capable of more than you know.

❤️‍🩹

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Darkness Tried to End this Life

Posted on January 24, 2025January 28, 2025 by Healing Creations PNW

Memories come up from times when life felt so close to the edge.

Life seemed like something so close to the end.

A mind so cluttered, so filled with fear.

A body so riddled with substances and unbalanced from the chase of night and day.

Thoughts fading away, worries taking over, friends with two faces taking up too much space.

There were times of silence towards the ones who were closest.

There were moments of sadness that lasted for days.

Yet, beyond the darkness, through the silence, there still seemed to be some light.

Falling away…

Falling under…

Never too deep, but just deep enough.

Finally one day, tired of suffering…

A reach up, a crawl, a walk and a run, back to life.

Back to peace.

Yet, never truly to feel without the darkness.

A darkness that had the deep calls for the ending.

Though, the darkness is not meant to call upon us all.

Some must just taste it, to see why we must turn away.

Back to the light.

In the light we must stay, but never to forget the bite of darkness that will never fully go away.

Keep Pushing

Posted on December 13, 2024December 13, 2024 by Healing Creations PNW

I almost backed out.

I almost gave up.

This quarter was really tough, in so many ways.

I’m so glad I didn’t give up.

I’m so glad I believed in myself and had a supportive group of people to help me get through.

There were some really dark days that I didn’t think I would survive.

There were some days that I felt would be my last.

But there was more reason to keep going than to let it be the end.

When we are faced with challenges, it can be extremely hard to fight through them to see the light.

Always find a reason to continue to push to see the light.

Life is worth living, even on the darkest and most painful day.

It is always worth living.

There is so much more beauty to see and experience beyond the challenges that seem to big to see beyond.

Everything is temporary.

Just keep going.

Trust Yourself

Posted on December 9, 2024 by Healing Creations PNW

Everyday we face challenges.

Everyday we are shown that we must choose.

Distractions or facing the truth.

You know what you need to do in order to be okay.

Trust yourself.

Life is Balance

Posted on August 20, 2023August 20, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Life is Balance

My Journey

Posted on August 12, 2023August 12, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Today I may be exhausted, my eyes may have heavy bags, my adrenals might feel like cement blocks….

I have been pushing so hard.

Tutoring hours, multiples times a day, walking miles, upon miles each day, being there for my inner world needs, and my outer world needs, and for others…

This is my story.

This is my path.

As my kids tell me they love me and appreciate who I am and what I have done for them, and they see how I’ve pulled myself up from toxic relationships and many years of partying that could have resulted in my life ending…

Trying and trying to find my purpose in this life…

It is times like this that I must remind myself that I am strong.

I am capable.

Some might look at me and see my lack, or they might see me better than I see myself.

It doesn’t matter.

I am still learning to see myself through the lens of love, with taking massive steps in self-improvements and making sure I am taking time to nurture my soul.

With each breath I hope to share love and light.

With each action I hope to be kind and give gratitude for this life and the experiences within it.

With every use of my voice, I hope to express good and positive things about myself and others.

Thank you for seeing me.

Thank you for reading this and taking in all that I am and have been.

My heart is full.

This life is beyond beautiful.

💙

– M.

You are Precious

Posted on May 25, 2023May 25, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

How long as it been since you truly felt loved?

True love is the best kind of love.

Pure love.

Selfless love.

Yet, we believe it comes from outside sources.

The truest, most magical love comes from within.

Be kind to yourself.

Do good to yourself.

Love yourself in the ways you have forgotten.

Take time to care for yourself each day and become your best lover.

Find the space,

Find the time,

Devote whatever moments you can to loving yourself.

You deserve you.

Be kind to yourself today, and each day here on after.

-M.

Trust the Process

Posted on April 19, 2023April 19, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Everything you are doing is guiding you towards where you are focusing your attention.

If you have certain goals or desires, allow yourself to focus on them so you can be pulled into that direction.

Have faith that each challenge and experience is guiding you towards those desires.

It might not always feel as though you are on the right path, but as long as you are still here, living and breathing, you are still on your path.

Each experience helps you become more connected to those desires.

Each challenge chisels away more of what is not necessary and strengthens what needs to be strengthened so that you can be better suited for your desired experiences.

This existence is to allow you to grow and heal to become more aware of yourself and your purpose.

You are doing a great job.

Keep pushing.

Keep learning.

Keep trusting.

You are making moves and connecting to your deepest desires.

Trust the path that is laid out before you and understand that each new turn, each new hill, each new speed bump is here to help you move forward with greater strength.

Keep going.

You are doing excellently well, with exponential efforts.

Keep going.

You are almost there.

-M.