Falling Apart

Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

Challenge Yourself

We have a perception of things, a way of understanding things in a certain way.

When we move away from that particular stream of thoughts we can learn to understand things in a different way.

As we move through life, some of us seek growth.

To grow, we must change the day to day, move our consciousness to different areas so we can learn to understand concepts in a different way.

This will change the way we process information, how we make decisions and how we react or even act.

Stagnant minds cannot grow.

Just like energy.

Thoughts get stuck going one way, when we have let them continue to build up momentum going down that stream of our minds.

We must move differently in order to move different muscles, so therefore we must be challenged in different ways to allow a different thought process to take place.

Getting comfortable with changes and with different challenges can allow for more peace of mind as we let go of certain patterns that we’re keeping us from even enjoying life more.

You make up the difference between your life in a state of peace or a state of discontent.

If you desire change, you must step out of that box and into the vast reality of immense possibilities there are all around you, every second of every day.

You choose.

Challenge yourself to change your mind.

⚛️

– M.

Crescent Moon

Love and Hate

You grew up in a world that was surrounded by confusion.

So many things seemed to be simple.

So many things seemed to be unobtainable.

You grew to think you understood love.

You grew to feel all too familiar with hate.

A mixed bag of things…

Hate vegetables, love video games.

Parents argued, hate your dad.

Love books, hate school.

So easy.

It’s all so normal.

Though, you felt lost and unsure, never really fitting in.

Seemed like life could be pretty easy, once you grew up to be over 18.

Yet, it didn’t get much better, more rules, less freedom.

You thought it might be different.

Thought it could be easier.

You wanted to grow up and be free, yet now you see it isn’t quite so easy.

What happened to all your dreams?

What happened to all those fancy things?

Didn’t you dream about becoming rich?

Didn’t you think it would be like the flip of a switch?

Wake up and you’re an adult, now the world will be yours to take…

Love and hate.

It’s a real battle.

Freedom and fate…

It’s like eating cake.

You don’t really know, until you grow up and find out…

That cake will now make you gain weight.

Now you also have to pay for that cake.

Then you have to run a mile, or two, to burn off that cake.

Being an adult, it’s not quite so easy, you see.

You thought you understood it all.

You thought you could live easily.

You thought life would be so simple.

Now you have to eat your vegetables and video games are a thing of the past.

Love and hate.

Now you know love is better, and hate is a waste of energy.

Being kind is a better use of your time, but it’s also overwhelming…

Being kind can make you seem weak.

Now you have to learn boundaries.

What even are boundaries and why are they a thing…

Let’s not even get into the complicated world of dating.

Men and women.

Men or women.

You really don’t even need any of that anymore.

It is really not an area you would enjoy to explore.

Time is ticking, and skin is wrinkling.

One day maybe there will be time to just exist.

No worries.

No fears.

No bills.

Not even a doctor promised happy pill.

Just a long moment to remember the freedom of being a child, without a worry about love or hate or anything other than… oh wait…

Let’s take a step back – it is not about love and hate.

It’s just about you.

You must accept your fate.

Dream big.

Find time to play.

Balance it all out.

Try not to stay up too late.

Life is what you make it.

Create it.

– M.

You Whispered to Me

You whispered to me,

through the silence of the wind,

through the quiet of the stars,

in the silence of the trees…

You whispered to me, in my ears, to my soul, from your heart, to my whole being.

You made me whole, with your presence.

You danced with me, on the sands of the beach, as the waves tried to catch my feet,

while my eyes slept, at night, and the moonlight healed my soul…

You danced with me among the trees, in the forest, while I searched for you…

So much time has passed since you left this world.

So many feelings I have had, so many fears I have learned to hold onto.

Now I’m learning to let go.

Yet, even with you gone, I can hear your voice, and it makes me want to hold onto you.

I can feel your touch, when a flower grazes over my skin.

Your songs are now sung by the birds, with the sunrise, each morning.

Not a day goes by that you are not here, with me.

For so long, I have dreamed of your whispering voice, telling me it is all going to be okay.

You remind me that you are here, I am safe, it is okay.

A windy day lets me know you are near.

A rainy day is the skies releasing all of your tears.

Time had felt so slow, but now I know it goes by at the pace of your heart beat.

You are the nature that surrounds me.

You are the breath that moves the winds.

I feel you more now than ever before, as you surround me.

You will always live within me, and now all around me.

You are within every living thing.

There is no death, there is only life that continues on, to an existence continued beyond.

You are each new blossom, full of fresh nectar.

You are each sky reaching tree, that moves, dancing in your winds.

You are each sunrise and sunset, with magical light that heals the soul.

You whisper to me through nature, in all the ways you possibly can, reminding me that everything will be okay.

Let’s dance, while I dream, in the moonlight, until the morning comes, when the birds sing your songs, and as the light of the sunrise welcomes another beautiful day full of so much beautiful life, life here and beyond.

Touch me as I walk through fields of grass and wildflowers that remind my skin how to feel.

Hold me on the mountain tops as I take it all in, and let go of all the fears.

Wash me with your tears, as they fall from the cloudy skies.

Remind me how to live, as I discover new life, each and every day that I am here.

For however long, I will exist here, with you surrounding me.

Whisper to me…

-M.

The Path Unknown