Writing about life

Promises

Posted on January 28, 2025January 28, 2025 by Healing Creations PNW

Promises….

Making promises of the future, when you don’t even want her in the present.

Creating plans for vacations, when you won’t even settle for a simple dinner tab.

Saying things on repeat, that just hurt her and make her feel so small.

Not good enough,
Not enough…

How dare you just play that game of push and pull when you know she is hurting so deeply already…

You care about her feelings?
You care about her emotions?

Then why did you touch her?

Why did you pull her down from that shelf she was resting on?

If only to test her out….
If only to try and get a taste…
If only to prove you still had it…

Let her go.
You did enough.

She is not for you.

She is a porcelain doll and porcelain is not meant for your kind…

The ones who open up the package and don’t put them away…

The ones who want to sit around and make empty promises…

Leaving her feeling all sorts of confusion, just making her run away.

How dare you,
Playing the fools game.

Feels very familiar.

Thank goodness she knew better.

⁃ M.

Darkness Tried to End this Life

Posted on January 24, 2025January 28, 2025 by Healing Creations PNW

Memories come up from times when life felt so close to the edge.

Life seemed like something so close to the end.

A mind so cluttered, so filled with fear.

A body so riddled with substances and unbalanced from the chase of night and day.

Thoughts fading away, worries taking over, friends with two faces taking up too much space.

There were times of silence towards the ones who were closest.

There were moments of sadness that lasted for days.

Yet, beyond the darkness, through the silence, there still seemed to be some light.

Falling away…

Falling under…

Never too deep, but just deep enough.

Finally one day, tired of suffering…

A reach up, a crawl, a walk and a run, back to life.

Back to peace.

Yet, never truly to feel without the darkness.

A darkness that had the deep calls for the ending.

Though, the darkness is not meant to call upon us all.

Some must just taste it, to see why we must turn away.

Back to the light.

In the light we must stay, but never to forget the bite of darkness that will never fully go away.

Trust Yourself

Posted on December 9, 2024 by Healing Creations PNW

Everyday we face challenges.

Everyday we are shown that we must choose.

Distractions or facing the truth.

You know what you need to do in order to be okay.

Trust yourself.

The Bridges of Life

Posted on October 17, 2024October 17, 2024 by Healing Creations PNW

There is magic in the journey.

We see where we want to be and we must let go of worrying how we will get there.

The bridges of life are not always for us to build, but they are a gift that we are guided to, that allow us to move from one chapter to the next.

We must not worry about how we will get to the next destination, we must only focus on visualizing where we want to go.

The journey is full of possibilities…

Remember to dream big, trust the process and have as much fun with it all as you possibly can.

-M.

Healing Journey

Posted on August 21, 2023August 20, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Sending pictures,

Sending texts,

Looking for love,

Looking for validation.

Trying to live up to everyone else’s expectations.

Hoping for love.

Looking for acceptance.

What is this life without outside validation.

Here me out.

Here me now.

See me fully.

See me wholly.

I am lost.

I am naked.

I am broken.

I am aching.

Cure me.

Fix me.

Heal me quickly.

The pains of this torture are slowly killing me.

Let me be.

Let me grow.

The only way is for me to be alone.

Find me lost.

Find me sad.

Leave me broken,

Leave me be.

I am healing,

I am picking up the scattered pieces of what’s left of me.

-M.

Love and Relationships

Posted on August 5, 2023August 5, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Why do we think love from another will satisfy us and solve our problems?

For too long I have thought this.

Find a mate, “the one”, and all will be fixed.

Walking a way from dating was the best fixer of my many of my problems.

Instead I took time to learn to go within.

Learning to love myself.

Learning to focus on my growth and my path was the best choice for my life.

Not everyone is meant for someone.

Not everyone wants to be in a relationship or have all that comes with having a mate.

Some of us need this lifetime to heal and grow and find peace in solitude.

When you learn to look within and seek out what is truly right for you, you can stop spending your energy on what is not allowing you to truly heal.

Direct your focus.

Allow your truth to come out.

Only you know what is right and best for you.

Only you can make the choices that fit with your life and your needs.

🌸

Single by choice, for my highest good. Self-care, self-growth, focused on my purpose and on my path. And Grateful for that.

🌸

– M.

Bloom

Posted on August 5, 2023August 5, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

Why settle with mediocre when you could allow yourself to blossom?

We are told to stay in line and to stay quiet.

Taught to stay small.

Follow the line of crowds, only do what you need to do.

Don’t step out of line.

Don’t talk back.

Don’t have a voice.

Ambition is for dreamers and losers who think they can be different and still succeed.

🙋🏽‍♀️

We ARE each different.

We DO have a voice.

We SHOULD step out of line and get away from the crowds.

We MUST learn to follow our hearts and TRUST our potential.

Bellow out your hearts desires from the very depth of your soul.

Scream and shout and dance with PASSION, for you are no robot.

You are WILD and FREE!

Keep being you.

Learn to love YOU.

Grow.

🌱

Blossom.

Bloom.

🌼

– M.

Climb

Posted on August 3, 2023August 3, 2023 by Healing Creations PNW

If you weren’t meant to climb those mountains of your heart’s desires, then you wouldn’t have been given the desires to climb those particular mountains, in the first place.

In life we are given choices.

We are given dreams.

We are given tools.

We are given an empty page in a notebook that we must fill up worth the equations of how all these givens work together to get us to our goals.

What is your goal?

What dreams or desires have been written upon your heart?

What tools were you given to help you achieve those dreams or desires?

I see it as, you have challenges that shape you into who you must become to fulfill such dreams.

Certain paths give us the knowledge or experiences we must go through to help us build up more tools and capabilities to help guide us to the destination.

If you desire to climb a mountain, you should do everything in your power to find a way to climb that mountain.

Look within you, all around you and see all that you have been given to follow the path that you seek. If it wasn’t your destiny, then it wouldn’t be placed upon our heart to achieve it.

We are given the variables to the equation, but we must be the ones to solve the equation. It is all there for us. We just have to take the pencil and choose to write out all that we have been given to see how we can understand how to get to the outcome.

Be the writer of your story.

Be the one who follows through.

You have all that you need.

Climb that mountain.

– M.