We can chase and chase who and what we think is right for us, but we won’t ever make it there…
And it will never work.
What is right for you won’t require chasing.
What is right for you won’t require anything other than allowing.
Make it a priority to be there for yourself.
Whatever is meant for you will show up.
It won’t require you to follow a path that takes you into dark, unpaved forests.
It will show you light, just as you show up with your own light.
And when you find those people and those things in life that are meant for you,
You won’t have to wonder if they are right for you.
It will feel right.
The motions won’t feel forced,
They will feel natural.
The give and take will be balanced, naturally,
Just as the waters of the ocean are absorbed into the clouds and then rain back down to shower the earth.
You won’t have to wonder if you’re doing the right thing,
You won’t wonder if you’re supposed to feel so alone and lost in those places or with those people you chased…
You will feel balanced.
There are moments in life when we are left wondering…
Is this job right for me?
Is this friendship right for me?
Is this partner right for me?
Is this life what I want?
We are always going to meet a crossroads, with all things in life.
We must look and see what our feelers are telling us.
Is my happiness to the right?
Is it to the left?
Did I lose it somewhere on that road behind me?
Happiness is peace.
No matter which road you choose,
Happiness will always be something that you must learn to obtain on your own, from within.
Outside circumstances can show us what is aligned with us, but we ultimately choose our own happiness.
Sometimes what’s on the outside, in those surrounding areas, with people or without, is what shows us the way to the destination we feel will be most peaceful and fulfilling.
A crossroads is always a great start to a new journey.
Though, it’s not about which road to go down, each road will have challenges.
It’s about which challenges you feel you are able to take on.
Sometimes we wonder why we are unhappy with ourselves.
So we look back over the years to see what’s created this.
We see our friendships and relationships, or the choices we have made.
We start looking over how some people have treated us, and how we have allowed a lot of unkindness to step over the doorstep of our soul’s experience, and right into our circle of peace.
People will show you who they are.
They will literally tell you.
Sometimes in words, but other times with their actions.
It can takes years to really see who they really were.
It can also take years to see your own self.
Learning to have more kind friendships takes a lot of self-love.
It takes determination and commitment to self.
Learning that you deserve to be around people who lift you up, rather than put you down, seems like it is common sense.
Yet, sometimes we don’t realize these people are putting us down, until we take time away from everyone so we can look back and process over it all.
Looking over what people have said to us, how we feel when we are around them, and the choices we make when we are with them, are all key signs to pay attention to.
Having been through many layers of my own healing, I am really starting to learn how I FEEL matters.
Listening to my body, to my energy, to my spirit with so many different aspects of life, is beginning to make more and more sense for so many different reasons.
Remembering back to when she was younger and thinking, “if only I could have valued myself more, if only I could have treated myself better.”
Time goes on with each click of the second hand.
The sun sets and rises, and she continues to find her way.
Still learning, still growing, yet now looking a little different and feeling a bit more further away from who she once was, yet still always the same.
Feeling the storms of my emotions, while getting my picture taken, not knowing what would come after.
Already working on dealing with so much trauma, and trying to survive, trying to keep my kids safe, though, it felt like there was danger coming.
Feelings erupting inside of me.
Feeling in a place of uncertainty, just as we tend to be, when in the middle of a storm.
After this shoot, I went for my daily walk and found my daughter was missing.
She was not where she was supposed to be, and when she knew I knew, she made it so I couldn’t call or text her.
It was a long weekend, trying to find her and get her home.
These are not stories I typically share on here, due to not wanting to over share, but sometimes I just need to release, for the healing, and to maybe help someone else.
Twenty six hours of not knowing where my daughter was, or if she would come home.
Twenty six hours of being in panic for her life and her wellbeing.
She finally returned home, and she was safe.
One more scar on my heart.
One more memory to remember how much I love her.
One more reason to show her more sensitivity and compassion.
This shoot really ended up representing more than Marina Shipova or I could have even imagined.
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