Falling Apart

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Sometimes you have to let yourself fall apart.

Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.

Let it be.

Don’t try to fix it all.

Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.

Just be cracked apart.

Open like broken skin.

Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.

Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.

Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.

Just be broken and completely fallen apart.

Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.

You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.

And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.

You will be whole.

Not the same as you were.

A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.

Rewrite your story.

Rewrite your life.

Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.

You are your own best project.

You are your own best masterpiece.

Never forget.

And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.

Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”

We will make our way.

We will walk our path.

Or we will sit.

We will walk when we are ready.

We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.

Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.

You do you.

And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.

You mattter.

You are important.

Your feelings are #1.

With love,
Monica

You Can’t Force What Is Not Meant To Be

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Nature has a way of guiding us.

Teaching us to let things be.

We can’t force anything that’s not meant to be.

Man has a way of wanting to control.

Nature shows us that we must let go of control.

There is a process of how things are.

No matter what you do, if it is not for you, it will not work.

You can try to push it.

You can try to pull it along.

But how far do you need to go, forcing what is not meant to be to try and fit where it doesn’t belong?

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We all go through changes.

This is life.

Part of being human is continuous evolution.

We don’t stay the same.

So when we try to stay all and continue to do the same routines that are no longer fit for us, it’s going to become uncomfortable.

Just like wearing clothes we have grown out of.

Or working at a job that we are over qualified for, because we have taken classes to move beyond that position.

When it’s time to move on, we will feel it.

And if we continue to try to wear those clothes, or stay in that job that no longer fits us, there will be big signs that force us to move on.

Have you ever worn pants that spit up the… backside? – I have…. Not fun!

If you’re feeling pushed to move on, listen.

If you are feeling the need to find a new place in life, go for it.

We can’t stay small if we have grown bigger.

We can’t expect to fit into places that we have been working so hard to move away from.

So go.

Get out there.

Make room for your new growth.

Re-pot, re-pant, re-job, or re-locate yourself.

There is no better way to feel more comfortable than to listen to that energy and MOVE ON!

Your growth deserves energy to move.

Your new life is waiting for you.

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📸 – Thisimage is from 2020, a nice day trip with an old friend.

A quick edit, but I will be doing more work on this image to prepare it for printing.

If you are interested in my prints please message me for more information.

I am looking forward to adding more of these beautiful images to my online shop on my website, and will be getting some up at local shops.

Thank you for your interest and support. ☀️🙏🏻

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Sit with Yourself

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Sit with yourself.

Let the fears and worries swim around you. 

Then let the universe show you that there is nothing to worry about. 

There is nothing to fear. 

Sit with yourself. 

Remember who you are. 

Remember why you are here 

Sit with yourself.

Relish in the silence. 

Appreciate the nature that surrounds you. 

Sit with yourself. 

Lean in. 

Listen to the whispers of your heart. 

What are they saying…

Sit with yourself. 

Be alone. 

Walk quietly.

Let the thoughts trickle away. 

Be still. 

Be silent. 

Breathe. 

You are safe. 

Love yourself. 

You are enough 

– M. 

The Sound of the Storm

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The Sound of The Storm

On the harder days, I remember this day.

It reminds me of what I have gotten through.

Feeling the storms of my emotions, while getting my picture taken, not knowing what would come after.

Already working on dealing with so much trauma, and trying to survive, trying to keep my kids safe, though, it felt like there was danger coming.

Feelings erupting inside of me.

Feeling in a place of uncertainty, just as we tend to be, when in the middle of a storm.

After this shoot, I went for my daily walk and found my daughter was missing.

She was not where she was supposed to be, and when she knew I knew, she made it so I couldn’t call or text her.

It was a long weekend, trying to find her and get her home.

These are not stories I typically share on here, due to not wanting to over share, but sometimes I just need to release, for the healing, and to maybe help someone else.

Twenty six hours of not knowing where my daughter was, or if she would come home.

Twenty six hours of being in panic for her life and her wellbeing.

She finally returned home, and she was safe.

One more scar on my heart.

One more memory to remember how much I love her.

One more reason to show her more sensitivity and compassion.

This shoot really ended up representing more than Marina Shipova or I could have even imagined.

Life is always full of uncertainty.

We just have to muster the courage to keep going.

One step at a time.

One day at a time.

One moment at a time.

Find your peace.

Find your balance.

Find your strength.

You are capable of more than you know.

❤️‍🩹

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Darkness Tried to End this Life

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Memories come up from times when life felt so close to the edge.

Life seemed like something so close to the end.

A mind so cluttered, so filled with fear.

A body so riddled with substances and unbalanced from the chase of night and day.

Thoughts fading away, worries taking over, friends with two faces taking up too much space.

There were times of silence towards the ones who were closest.

There were moments of sadness that lasted for days.

Yet, beyond the darkness, through the silence, there still seemed to be some light.

Falling away…

Falling under…

Never too deep, but just deep enough.

Finally one day, tired of suffering…

A reach up, a crawl, a walk and a run, back to life.

Back to peace.

Yet, never truly to feel without the darkness.

A darkness that had the deep calls for the ending.

Though, the darkness is not meant to call upon us all.

Some must just taste it, to see why we must turn away.

Back to the light.

In the light we must stay, but never to forget the bite of darkness that will never fully go away.

  • M.

Trust Yourself

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Everyday we face challenges.

Everyday we are shown that we must choose.

Distractions or facing the truth.

You know what you need to do in order to be okay.

Trust yourself.

  • M.

The Bridges of Life

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There is magic in the journey.

We see where we want to be and we must let go of worrying how we will get there.

The bridges of life are not always for us to build, but they are a gift that we are guided to, that allow us to move from one chapter to the next.

We must not worry about how we will get to the next destination, we must only focus on visualizing where we want to go.

The journey is full of possibilities…

Remember to dream big, trust the process and have as much fun with it all as you possibly can.

-M.

Exist

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In a day, so much can happen.

Slow down and listen to the sounds around you.

Shut off your thoughts and just allow the sounds to be your existence.

-M.

Love and Hate

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You grew up in a world that was surrounded by confusion.

So many things seemed to be simple.

So many things seemed to be unobtainable.

You grew to think you understood love.

You grew to feel all too familiar with hate.

A mixed bag of things…

Hate vegetables, love video games.

Parents argued, hate your dad.

Love books, hate school.

So easy.

It’s all so normal.

Though, you felt lost and unsure, never really fitting in.

Seemed like life could be pretty easy, once you grew up to be over 18.

Yet, it didn’t get much better, more rules, less freedom.

You thought it might be different.

Thought it could be easier.

You wanted to grow up and be free, yet now you see it isn’t quite so easy.

What happened to all your dreams?

What happened to all those fancy things?

Didn’t you dream about becoming rich?

Didn’t you think it would be like the flip of a switch?

Wake up and you’re an adult, now the world will be yours to take…

Love and hate.

It’s a real battle.

Freedom and fate…

It’s like eating cake.

You don’t really know, until you grow up and find out…

That cake will now make you gain weight.

Now you also have to pay for that cake.

Then you have to run a mile, or two, to burn off that cake.

Being an adult, it’s not quite so easy, you see.

You thought you understood it all.

You thought you could live easily.

You thought life would be so simple.

Now you have to eat your vegetables and video games are a thing of the past.

Love and hate.

Now you know love is better, and hate is a waste of energy.

Being kind is a better use of your time, but it’s also overwhelming…

Being kind can make you seem weak.

Now you have to learn boundaries.

What even are boundaries and why are they a thing…

Let’s not even get into the complicated world of dating.

Men and women.

Men or women.

You really don’t even need any of that anymore.

It is really not an area you would enjoy to explore.

Time is ticking, and skin is wrinkling.

One day maybe there will be time to just exist.

No worries.

No fears.

No bills.

Not even a doctor promised happy pill.

Just a long moment to remember the freedom of being a child, without a worry about love or hate or anything other than… oh wait…

Let’s take a step back – it is not about love and hate.

It’s just about you.

You must accept your fate.

Dream big.

Find time to play.

Balance it all out.

Try not to stay up too late.

Life is what you make it.

Create it.

– M.

Find Validation Within

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Validation

How often do you look to outside sources to feel validated?

This is something I have touched on before, but it definitely feels necessary to discuss again, as I observe it so much, within myself and in others around me.

We want to feel good.

We want to feel accepted.

We want to feel as though we are good enough to be liked or sought after, by others.

Though, why do we go to such lengths as to step away from what is true to us in order to gain validation from others?

Do we even know why it is that we are seeking validation or acceptance from others?

It is a natural part of human nature to desire to be liked and to feel accepted. Though, so many go above and beyond the norms to try to get validated.

Now that we have social media and all these different forms of sharing ourselves, it’s a bigger issue than normal, to seek out validation.

Having followers or getting likes, it seems to be the new normal, yet is it really helping us?

Is it really helping you?

If you need to change your appearance to be accepted by someone, let them go.

If you feel the need to be a different way, that is not natural to your true self, in order to fit in with a group, let them go.

If you need to get on a dating site to feel good about yourself, maybe it’s time to do some self-love practice.

If you feel that you need to have surgery to feel accepted or loved by someone, it might be time to really do some deep inner work and healing, and find new people to be around.

Validation, love, acceptance, these things are all connected. Sometimes they can be confused or seen differently than they are.

So much of the time they can be disregarded, ignored, or even thought of as not necessary…

Yet look at our world.

You are special.

You are unique.

You are loved and accepted by so many, and you are exactly how you need to be, for your life purpose.

When you change yourself, you aren’t allowing yourself to be who you are meant to be.

When you change yourself, you aren’t allowing love in.

When you change yourself you are saying you are not good enough.

There are good changes that we can make.

Facing fears.

Healing from eating disorders.

Learning how to take better care of yourself and of others.

Some changes are necessary and helpful, but there are so many that can cause harm and pull you further away from what is actually really good for you.

Do you look at yourself in the mirror and feel happy?

Do you hear your voice on a voicemail or recording and feel uncomfortable with what you hear?

Do you know your worth, aside from financial gain?

Who are you, behind that mask of flesh and bones?

Who is the YOU deep inside, that inner being?

Do you feel worthwhile?

How do you treat yourself?

How do you show yourself love?

…feel this.

Take a minutes and breathe.

Breathe in through your nose.

Down to your belly.

Let your belly expand.

Let it out through your mouth.

REPEAT.

And again.

Now again.

However many times you feel you need to.

Get centered.

YOU

ARE

ENOUGH

everything in your life is for you.

everything is happening for you.

you are safe.

you are loved.

you are valued.

you are accepted.

Now let go of all this self-hate.

Let go of the need to feel or look like everyone else.

Let go of the need to please everyone else.

You are not supposed to do that.

Validation comes from within.

Love comes from within.

You are always accepted.

You are always loved.

You are doing a great job.

It’s time to learn how to love yourself, just as you are, for who you are.

You are perfect.

You are special.

You are unique.

You are loved.

Thank you for being here.

Now take care of yourself and love yourself so you can enjoy this beautiful life with so much more gratitude and peace.

⁃ M.