A cloak that covered her great powers, making her seem weak.
Her focus was always directed on the future, yet the darknesses of the past continued to try and drown her, it tried to sink her, dragging her deep below the surface of the present moment she so longed to see.
A light was bright within her, guiding her, and others.
Yet, she never saw this light, though she was told about it by many.
The storms that chased her kept her focused on the fears that she was determined to conquer.
What she saw was darkness, fear and worry.
Doubts plagued her thoughts, poisoning her mind like chains, dragging her down.
The depth of her seas took her under, yet she always found ways to swim back up to the surface to breathe.
Yet, not for long.
Storms constantly took her under, so she learned to breathe underwater.
She found her strength within the depths, finding peace in her solace, she found her ground to stand on, deep within the storm under the sea that surrounded her, on sands at the bottom of the ocean.
In the deep depths of the sea, she found her way, she finally saw the light that others had been guided by whenever she was near.
On a day that seemed ordinary, she found she had wings.
Learning how to swim with them under water, she wondered if they could also take her above the surface.
She kicked off from the sands on the bottom of the ocean floor.
Pushing through the cold waters, she emerged, flying above the sea, into the clouds above.
Let your soul crack open and fall all over the place.
Let it be.
Don’t try to fix it all.
Don’t try to put yourself back together right away.
Just be cracked apart.
Open like broken skin.
Feelings pulsating like a racing heartbeat.
Exhausted and lost with no idea where you even want to try to step.
Not even sure if you’re ready to move forward with anything at all.
Just be broken and completely fallen apart.
Then little by little, you’ll find all the pieces that you want to keep and put them back together.
You’ll reach out for your missing parts and collect them all, deciding what’s no longer for you, and what is still for you.
And in the slowest, most delicate way, you will piece yourself back together again.
You will be whole.
Not the same as you were.
A better version, without the parts that were holding you down, and holding you back.
Rewrite your story.
Rewrite your life.
Put yourself back together and remember you are perfectly imperfect.
You are your own best project.
You are your own best masterpiece.
Never forget.
And that light at the end of the road will always be waiting for you.
Even if you need to sit in the middle of the road with your arms crossed, your eyebrows furrowed, saying “f*** off you too da*mn bright light, don’t tell me what to do or where to go. I’ll do what I want, when I want to do it.”
We will make our way.
We will walk our path.
Or we will sit.
We will walk when we are ready.
We will do it in our own time, in our own way, when we feel ready.
Now go and be you, and don’t let anyone tell you how to be you or how to live your life, not even me in these poetic ways.
You do you.
And if any of this triggers you, ignore it and block me, and I’ll be okay with that.
Deeply rooted in how you value yourself in all the ways.
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We can find ourselves getting lost in taking care of other people, neglecting our own needs.
Work, family, friends, partners, life can take over our minds and take up our mental to do list.
We can give and give and give, but forget how we also need to receive.
We don’t necessarily need to receive from others, but we do need to receive from ourselves.
Remember to fill your own cup before filling another’s.
When you wake up, check in with yourself.
Before you go to bed, check in with yourself.
Throughout the day we can be so busy, but it’s important to remember to take time to come back to your own body, your own feelings and take a mental note on how you are feeling.
Become deeply rooted in yourself.
This life is full of distractions, but when we can remember that our needs are also important, we can find more grounding and peace.
We can chase and chase who and what we think is right for us, but we won’t ever make it there…
And it will never work.
What is right for you won’t require chasing.
What is right for you won’t require anything other than allowing.
Make it a priority to be there for yourself.
Whatever is meant for you will show up.
It won’t require you to follow a path that takes you into dark, unpaved forests.
It will show you light, just as you show up with your own light.
And when you find those people and those things in life that are meant for you,
You won’t have to wonder if they are right for you.
It will feel right.
The motions won’t feel forced,
They will feel natural.
The give and take will be balanced, naturally,
Just as the waters of the ocean are absorbed into the clouds and then rain back down to shower the earth.
You won’t have to wonder if you’re doing the right thing,
You won’t wonder if you’re supposed to feel so alone and lost in those places or with those people you chased…
You will feel balanced.
There are moments in life when we are left wondering…
Is this job right for me?
Is this friendship right for me?
Is this partner right for me?
Is this life what I want?
We are always going to meet a crossroads, with all things in life.
We must look and see what our feelers are telling us.
Is my happiness to the right?
Is it to the left?
Did I lose it somewhere on that road behind me?
Happiness is peace.
No matter which road you choose,
Happiness will always be something that you must learn to obtain on your own, from within.
Outside circumstances can show us what is aligned with us, but we ultimately choose our own happiness.
Sometimes what’s on the outside, in those surrounding areas, with people or without, is what shows us the way to the destination we feel will be most peaceful and fulfilling.
A crossroads is always a great start to a new journey.
Though, it’s not about which road to go down, each road will have challenges.
It’s about which challenges you feel you are able to take on.
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